Wow! I did not realize how long it had been since I have blogged. I weighed Monday and had agained a pound. I am chalking it up to PMS and not enough time to run lately. Not enough time to do ANYTHING lately. So goes my life...lol
Many things have occured, some in pretend world, some in the real world. In the real world, Husband and I actually talked last night. We talked about when we first knew we were in love with each other and how much we liked each other. I looked at him and said "What the hell happened to us? Are we just old and tired and don't care anymore?". He looked at me with a blank stare. Suprise, he has no idea we have issues. Great, now I am going to have to approach our relationship from the stand point that he has NO IDEA that I am not happy. I thought I was FOR SURE sending off signs! Obviously, every other person on each has noticed except Husband. Jeez! I guess one day when I grow the balls to tell him, I will at least be ready for the shock of him not knowing. Double jeez!
Pretend world has been VERY busy. SchoolCrush has taken the #1 lead in ranking of pretend relationships. We text a lot now, and he makes me laugh, A LOT! (which ironically, was one of the things I loved about Husband when I met him!). We are also now study buddies. And we tend to study a lot now. We should never fall below a 4.0 at this point, and I will leave it at that.
HotDoctor is still as fucked up as I am. Our unstable pretend relationship sometimes sucks the life out of me. I accidentally asked another Doctor (we will call him FunnyDoctor...because he cracks me up!) a question in front of HotDoctor and I thought I would never hear the end of it. Usually, anything that involves HotDoctor paying me lots of attention is exciting, but this wore me down. He is needier than ME!! He is HOT. He is a doctor. He has tons of money and a beautiful family....WTF??!! I brought him a Starbucks from lunch to smooth it over. It worked AND I managed to get a big hug out of it. It was worth the pretend drama.
CougarBoy still says he wants to marry me if I ever get divorced. We laugh at this like it will never happen, but you never know. I can't wait to see his face the day I tell him it is happening. I feel sure he will retract the offer, but for now, it is all pretend! lol His body still inspires me to run. And run. And run.
And now, back to the real world. BoyChild has rekindled his relationship with Thomas the Train, and I am not happy. Thomas is a better choice that watching TV like a zombie or tuning out life for the DS, but it is still annoying. In BoyChilds first Thomas affair, he did not know where we kept the batteries, how to get them, or how to use them. Now he does. Damn. I do LOVE the fact that BoyChild is intelligent and witty, but sometimes he gets the advantage over us. BoyChild says the funniest thing and keeps me on my toes...it is like he actually GETS grown up life and what it is all about. That kinda breaks my heart because he needs to be a kid, but I guess that is where Thomas comes in. I guess I should be grateful for that damn train! lol
GirlChild is just me made over. She is sassy and hilarious. She is smarter than she acts, which she uses to her advantage. She is chatty ALL THE TIME, always wants to be in the middle of everything, knows whats best for everybody, and yearns to be the boss. And I get it. I really do. I basically feel the same way deep down inside, but have hushed that part of me because nobody ever listened. So I listen to her. I want her to be assertive and self-confident. I want her REAL life to be so fabulous she doesn't need the pretend ones. Basically, I just try my best every day NOT to fuck her up like me. I am not sure when or where, but someone (maybe even myself) stole my self-love and self confidence. I don't want to be the one that steals hers AND I want to keep someone from doing it. If I could put her in a protective bubble, I would.
BFF is having a baby GIRL!! I am so excited about BabyBFF (had it been a boy, it would have been BFFJr.)! I can hear the excitment in BFF's voice when I talk to her. She SO deserves this bundle of happiness! I can't wait to me an Aunt/BabyDaddy! :) I am already picking out things to be monogrammed...and in toile! lol
Wow, I think I covered EVERYTHING, so that is all for now! Monday is weigh day, so we will see what happens then!
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